A tonic moment
“Time, words and opportunity are the three things in life that, once gone, never come back. I reminded them to make full use of their time and opportunities. I also warned them of (the dangers of) anger, pride, and unforgiveness. These can destroy a person” ~ Rexy Mainaky
It’s not everyday you get to read in the sports section of life philosophies. Well, many interpret soccer as being philosophical or magical, depending who scored the goals the night before. But I found the above comment by Rexy that had a poignant moment. It had depth and I think it sprung from wisdom. He contacted the minds of his players that being a badminton player is not only about playing the game day in and day out. But should reflect about their whole life
Their careers are badminton. Yet Rexy mentions having a paradigm shift. It nudge me to relook at my state of vocation and what am I doing day in & day out. I have been reflecting about my current career stint. Thankfully, through self reflection, a lot of journaling – well more scribbling than anything else, mental conversations with the mind till exhaustion and fundamentally having conversations with some really good friends over light hearted dinners prove to be a solid action.
It occurs to me rather oddly that through my reflections with God, he has been telling me to sit. I have been reading some Christian text which has no cover, it’s photocopied but the words in it are amazing. It’s classically rich in texture and I have been enjoying the feeding before bed.
The word sit has been running through my mind a lot. It’s an assuring revelation to me. That everything that needs to be done has been done on the Cross. And that I don’t need to work towards it but rather sit with him and let go, let God (I finally get a glimpse of this understanding). It was further exemplified in the text of a person who is drowning and the call to action as to whether to save him now or later?
He is drowning and grappling every strength to stay afloat, his mind is scattered and aimless in direction, filled with myriad feelings of fear primarily and anxiety. If one was to jump in and save him, he would probably have drowned you too as when he grapples you together in his state, you would sink. It is therefore better to let him go into sinking mode first (where his energy is exasperated) and then jump and save him. That is a picture of I guess, surrender and total dependence and let nature takes its course. You release all that you have.
And God is sometimes like that. In our bitter state of negative emotion, where we’re mentally blocked by the injustice in our journey path. God waits for you to sit, to settle down. It is pointless coming when you’re trying to scramble for air in the thick waters of emotion. Instead there must be a total dependence on Him, a total release and surrender.
I have read Genesis many times, but never saw it in this simple light. God worked for 6 days. And rested on the 7th. Adam began life on the 6th day and having a rewarding responsibility over God’s creation. In view, Adam began his life with rest, with some stillness, a sit with Him moment.
It’s funny how the world encourages us to always chase for the greener grass, the bigger package yet becomes ultimately futile. I made choice to be quiet, to keep still before Him and discounting down the shadows because I needed to learn how to sit.
It’s like how my hair needs to sit with some hair tonic. To prevent anymore attrition. It’s like surrendering my hair strands so that it may stand again. God fills the release, and only through Him can we make peace.
That was refreshing, gin & tonic anyone? ;p
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