I think I need to let it out tonight, though unsure where this post will lead to. I am trusting my interest for writing and how I naturally internalize will somehow allow me to unload tonight, just for tonight before I head to bed.

I am so exhausted and extremely tired, can I get even more? Supposedly, I can!

I have so much to update and a stacking list of blog entries to put up (some with pictures, if I ever figure out how to do it right). As I jog through my memory in the last 2 months or so, I would have to write about:

* The Farewell: the long journey with Sara Lee
* The Travel Tales: Philippines – Singapore – Adelaide – Singapore
* The Opportunity: Speaking at the Bloggers Karnival and the fun that comes with it
* Single: How’s it been since living alone after a year?
* Beauty: That’s where I am right now. (the new job)

It’s been my 3rd week, and I am telling you – I feel stretched to the core. I don’t know where to begin, but I am not resting enough or early. I feel exhausted in more ways than one and would love to enjoy some social company. Man, I even missed out on Star Trek and it’s likely that I’ll miss out on Transformers 2 as well. It’s just been a mountain and the route has not been easy at all. Honestly, I am being thrown right into the deep end and I am still trying to swim up to catch some air. I can only balance as much as my faith allows.

Tonight, I am actually going to take time to pray. Spend time with Him. I haven’t been for a while now, I just need to voice it out. I hope I am on the right track here. Opportunities, opportunities…I say, I give it my best shot along the way. And such is the case. Since I have also committed to Crazy Little Thing Called Love for 2009, which means a re-staging of the play focusing mostly on outstation churches, I fear the travel load and current work load + work travels are going to take a heavy toll on me. And I know I’ll still give it my best shot during this year for everything I do, I just have to bite the bullet and pray that all will come through.

I really wished I could be blogging more and enjoying the reflective moments, but it’s been absolutely and nearly impossible. The hours that I am putting in. Goodness.

Passion versus Career, where do you go? Do you follow your heart or move with your mind?

Sometimes, I wish someone would just ‘find’ me and say, “you’re it, let’s go. Do it!”

I remember Phil 4:13, I just have to believe it.

It’s past 1 am, and I have yet to rest. I am still unwinding from the day. What a day!

I better rest up. Before that, anyone reading this and being closer to the circles of PJ Bloggers Karnival, I’m looking for pictures from the event so that I too, could blog about it.

On a rather short notice, I gave a talk with Josh (founder of Advertlets) on using a case study none other than Soh Hem Sem. I realized after, that there were more legs and much more that could be shared of which I’ll probably write about it soon.

But yeah, if you happen to know any links or pictures from the event, leave me a comment? thanks!

Selamat Malam

Where do I even begin? To I  say left the blogsphere would be untrue. Yet, remind myself that I have not been totally committed nor connected as well. It’s funny how triggers in life prompt you to reboot and activate the different parts of your life again.

Why now? Because of new triggers.

Man, the ebb and flow for writing is rather forced at this moment for me. Perhaps I have been exercising very different muscles off late. Life has been quite a rollercoaster I must say. The idea of connectivity is also having minimal windows of opportunity. The new workplace allows very limited access to the online portals so I am fairly restricted in most instances. Otherwise, I have been spending heaps of time with my moleskine and the physical writing becomes raw and self inviting in nature because it’s my new outlet for reflection.

It’s my 6th day at the zone of ”Because I’m worth it”, and I am having my lunch at my cubicle. I hope it’s not a start of a new trend. One thing is for sure though, the second half is going to confirm that change is the only constant thing for me and that will continue to evolve. I have a whole list of stuff to do and I’m trying to manage given the time boundary.

Okay, I have to finish up lunch and get myself ready for the meeting. The battle begins. And to know, that I manage to enjoy a breathtaking moment during my break down under gives me only the greatest sense of warmth in my heart, which will trigger me to remain calm in all I do.