“Time, words and opportunity are the three things in life that, once gone, never come back. I reminded them to make full use of their time and opportunities. I also warned them of (the dangers of) anger, pride, and unforgiveness. These can destroy a person” ~ Rexy Mainaky

It’s not everyday you get to read in the sports section of life philosophies. Well, many interpret soccer as being philosophical or magical, depending who scored the goals the night before. But I found the above comment by Rexy that had a poignant moment. It had depth and I think it sprung from wisdom. He contacted the minds of his players that being a badminton player is not only about playing the game day in and day out. But should reflect about their whole life

Their careers are badminton. Yet Rexy mentions having a paradigm shift. It nudge me to relook at my state of vocation and what am I doing day in & day out. I have been reflecting about my current career stint. Thankfully, through self reflection, a lot of journaling – well more scribbling than anything else, mental conversations with the mind till exhaustion and fundamentally having conversations with some really good friends over light hearted dinners prove to be a solid action.

It occurs to me rather oddly that through my reflections with God, he has been telling me to sit. I have been reading some Christian text which has no cover, it’s photocopied but the words in it are amazing. It’s classically rich in texture and I have been enjoying the feeding before bed.

The word sit has been running through my mind a lot. It’s an assuring revelation to me. That everything that needs to be done has been done on the Cross. And that I don’t need to work towards it but rather sit with him and let go, let God (I finally get a glimpse of this understanding). It was further exemplified in the text of a person who is drowning and the call to action as to whether to save him now or later?

He is drowning and grappling every strength to stay afloat, his mind is scattered and aimless in direction, filled with myriad feelings of fear primarily and anxiety. If one was to jump in and save him, he would probably have drowned you too as when he grapples you together in his state, you would sink. It is therefore better to let him go into sinking mode first (where his energy is exasperated) and then jump and save him. That is a picture of I guess, surrender and total dependence and let nature takes its course. You release all that you have.

And God is sometimes like that. In our bitter state of negative emotion, where we’re mentally blocked by the injustice in our journey path. God waits for you to sit, to settle down. It is pointless coming when you’re trying to scramble for air in the thick waters of emotion. Instead there must be a total dependence on Him, a total release and surrender.

I have read Genesis many times, but never saw it in this simple light. God worked for 6 days. And rested on the 7th. Adam began life on the 6th day and having a rewarding responsibility over God’s creation. In view, Adam began his life with rest, with some stillness, a sit with Him moment.

It’s funny how the world encourages us to always chase for the greener grass, the bigger package yet becomes ultimately futile. I made choice to be quiet, to keep still before Him and discounting down the shadows because I needed to learn how to sit.

It’s like how my hair needs to sit with some hair tonic. To prevent anymore attrition. It’s like surrendering my hair strands so that it may stand again. God fills the release, and only through Him can we make peace.

That was refreshing, gin & tonic anyone? ;p

God : Hello. Did you call Me?

Me : Called you? No. Who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I would chat.

Me : I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I amactually busy now. I am in the midst of something..

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me : Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Lifehas become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant Messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, bygiving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell Me, why has life become complicated now?God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests?Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading..

God : If you look outside you will not know where youare heading. Look inside. Looking outside, your dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt morethan moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a Measure as decided by others.Satisfaction is a Measure as decided by you. Knowing the road head is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You ork with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go.Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : When they suffer they ask, “why Me?” When theyprosper, they never ask “Why Me” Everyone wishes to have truth ontheir side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. Ican’t get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle yourpresent with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayersare not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times theanswer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubts your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me.Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

:: There is so much from this conversation that we ALL can learn from. This reading is having so much importance in my life now – going somewhere with a spiritual compass, having insight and not sight. This is very good. Thank you Lord. Life is all about choices, be very sure what you make of it and remember always who was the one who first gave you choice. Then remember further, that He made a choice to love you by giving His one and only begotten Son, Jesus so that we may have eternal life. What is your choice today?

::: This is one entry which requires a bookmark so that when I feel mashed up and lost in the world, this conversation will be one of the greatest timely reminders to bend away from the teachings of the world.

I just spent the afternoon catching up on work readings. The list stretches on from Wall Street Journal Asia, Brand Equity, ADOI, Digital Marketing Trends and well, some were interesting while others were rather dry. Some had become surface updates for knowing while others, keened my knowledge further.

The best chew was still potato and chicken curry.

I had 3 emails that left me thinking a bit. I have yet to replied.

Spent my little breaks catching ticks off my dogs. My mum just gave me a spray pump with heavy content to murder them all. My fingers are warming on this keyboard before I begin the episode downstairs. hehe.

I know at the back of my head, I still more to do and read, the stuff I really need to familiarize myself with. The fact that I’m not taking CNY break in view of wanting to secure my ground more, is a choice worth it. In the quiet rest of others, I test my very own waters.