I have had such a long week. On Thursday alone, I got home from work at 7:30 am and slept for 3 hours and was back to work at 11:30pm-ish. It was probably one of my longest pull ever in work situations. However, I believe when you’re tasked, you have to stick to it and deliver, albeit no matter how tired and exhausted you are. If you stick around long enough, things will come through. Maybe it’s also the perfectionist in me to some degree but I try to manage that a lil’ more positive now.
During that time, I was glad to have fellowship with a fellow colleague because we had to head to the studio at about 10 for the editing work to be done. We share a dinner meal together and he shared how he came to know the Lord. I was encouraged. I took the splendid opportunity to say grace and that definitely set a nice structure for the night. So we talked about life and about work, I think its imperative to build non-office hour relationships because it helps build trust and integrity and also see a side where you don’t normally see.
And time and time again, I hear this from anyone who knows the Lord, they are so glad to have met Him because without Him, they do not know where they would be now. Seems the bad water life was a watermark to some point but cleanse to new being after. I listened attentively and in my heart, nodded and affirmed that our God is great.
In preparation of Sales Convention the following day, 4 of us had to go in to the studio to work on the movie pitch agenda for the brands. It was tedious work, putting in the market share, creating moments for the movie integrating our brand strategies and information. I personally thought it was a masterpiece above it all.
I am really glad that it turned out really really well. And that we really kicked butt. Once again, we did it, I must say. Tired and exhausted but we did it.
I have been having a lot of preparation work to do for Bangkok next weekend, attending a meeting and I-Gen conference when I’m over there. I’ve been having to do some research with regards to face care and that has been quite tedious with a lot of other things at work. I’m probably going to work on it after lunch.
Yesterday came our company annual dinner. As you know, last year I came as zombified meat butcher with the great help of Mark, which gave everyone a real stare and fright I must say, but it was real fun, a time to let loose and go the distance. The theme for the year before was Fun Fright. I managed to win a consolation prize for that, RM200. The first prize would have gotten you RM1000. Not bad on ROI, if you put in about RM60-70 for the costume making. It was good fun doing that with Mark, I learnt quite a bit of detail in gory making. Its much nicer than renting and being like everyone else.
The year came again, for the theme of ‘Wild Wild West’. After having such a long week, time was not on my side of thinking about costume, but I chanced to bounce of ideas with Su Ann this time, at first wanting to come as a cactus but we ended coming up with the WANTED MAN. It was hillarious! We took to big drawing paper boards and pasted it together, burnt the sides, use coffee to stain the overall look and burnt it here and there. We cut a hole in the middle to stuff my face in and with the text writing – WANTED. Posted by Sanexville. Guilty for using Gatsby & Elite. Reward RM10, 000. I was Kleen Eeastwood. Let me explain the significance behind all the interesting words.
Sanex = a brand that I am personally handling
Gatsby & Elite = Brylcreem’s direct competitors in the hair gel and hair wax category
Kleen = Kiwi Kleen is one of our brands.
Ee = that’s my surname.
So I think, for originality – it surely kicked butt. Much thanks to Su Ann for all the help and creativity behind it. Once again, it was great delight to be working on a costume itself. In recent times, I have developed a great appreciation for building things – just making something from scratch or at least learning from it. Also, liking to clean stuff – making something old to something new.
With all good highs, there bound to be some lows. My apologies if the next half hits rock bottom or rest on a flat chord for you. As for me, it got me where it mattered. And it hurts. In the last few months, I have had to deal with some very serious personal concerns of mine and more importantly with relationships – and this extends to various sorts. And its tough learning how manage them because some things don’t change and you are roped in because you’re simply bloodline. You’re expected to stand up for and be this camp and that camp. I have been really tired for the many ousted efforts. A couple of weeks ago, there was a major confrontation and it landed on me. I was not too pleased with what I heard and also very careful of what I was taking in. Nonetheless, I think God provided the wisdom to handle that particular moment and I am very thankful because I couldn’t have possibly handled it any much earlier. It’s been like a sour thorn in my heart and things won’t be changing soon and I can’t do much about it especially so when it affects one particular person – it’s tough when it has to do with family I tell you. It’s even tougher when you’re growing up as a man and that’s more expected of you. So what do u do? What can I do? I pray about it, I journal so much till the ink pierces the white paper. I tear some of the pages at times because in frustration because I write to no avail, I search for no answers because it’s beyond my human thoughts and wisdom. I seek Him first after all and I truly trust the deliverance of this major episode.
After annual dinner, I had a very personally conversation with someone and we’re discussing about certain issues and once again, it kinda landed to no proper ground in my opinion.I really hope I find it in me to manage this better but at this point in time, it is just not to be. I also dislike the commnality where everyone knows everyone kind of thing, and where one mouth passes to another and before you know it, the best stories of the world is told with you being the main character. I can’t explain the responsive shockness from me at times. I just have no idea where people find time for that sort of avenue. I find it also absolutely retarded. Some people still harp at things 7 years ago and used that approved righteousness if i could put it that way.
I honestly find it so tiring and that’s why I put an end to all this. And it really goes to show that age does not matter in this account because it’s really an attitude and character that you are, and I always say this – you can always choose to respond differently. Albeit unusual and difficult for me, I found it more rewarding and more assuring when I respond with God first than anything else. And I can never put an end to the others honestly but I can’t help vent fairly about my disappointment in this area, and also in no position to be storming in my personal opinion because A) you hold a respectable status in my life and I am in no position to question that at this point in time B) the circumstance of our position had led to undesirable consequences that leaves only room for recovery and nothing else. Well, if you are still wondering, A n B are not related but are intertwined in some way. I know, I know…it’s complex, that’s why I am having such a strong difficultly I tell you. And it’s only the top of an umbrella of the whole thing. I won’t get into the secondary roles of the situation but I am really downcast by all this.
For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me,
And what I dreaded has happened to me.
I am not at ease, nor am I quiet;
I have no rest, for trouble comes. ~ Job 4: 25 -26
I just have to rise above the bad waters and catch the wind I guess.
Finally, the most unbelievable thing found in the blogsphere, I got this of W who sent me a mail, I’ll post this as verbatim – it kinda captures the moment the best and my weirdest face yet, I’m just speechless. I have no idea where she found the link from and I’m still awaiting her reply but it sure is freaky!
Title: is this you in the picture?
i can’t really tell if it’s you or not…i’m curious though.
it sure looks like you..let me know.
W.
edit: so W, was actually surfing about gay pastor and it kinda led her to that. but the blog owner is not the gay pastor but that dude had met that pastor. Ok, i think i need to go lie down now. Before that, I had to ask W, how did she narrow to such an entry date. Her reply, “My internet skills? Uncanny I must admit”. And for the record, m not gay either. Like her, I had to look at the picture a couple of times but I knew the shirt. She is highly amused by it. 
And like her, we both taught it was female until we had a rude awakening. Then she laughed, and I cried. bah.
It’s gonna be a trying time swimming out of the currents. But one has to press on and hope to see the light at the surface waters. And this I say, is life…
