I need more sleep
I want more sleep
I need more time to sleep

I just wanna sleep

Do you Zzzzz me?

this month has been quite a MAYhem in many ways.
note to self: Everyday is a Friday

Praise & thanksgiving:-

1. Terence has spoken to his immediate boss and they have decided to retain him and getting paid leave up to 60 days during this account.
2. The witness has contacted Terence last night and they are finally, finally meeting up.

O Lord, be gracious to us;
we long for you.
Be our strength every morning,
our salvation in time of distress
The Lord is exalted, for he dwells on high
He will fill Zion with justice & righteousness.
He will be the sure foundation for your times,
a rich store of salvation and wisdom and knowledge;
the fear of the Lord is the key to this treasure. (Isaiah 33: 2, 5-6)

: I had no doubt about the prayers echoed by the many for Terence, that God has heard and in our human anxious wait time, I knew in my heart that God will answer – the fulfillment of the prayer in His glorious time.
:: Moreover, I think this is a lesson of character development i.e. the test of faith, whereby when all things seem dull, with many attractive wordly offers seem best to settle the case, has at times clinch the issue of principles. I am glad we stood strong and hold true to what truly matters – total dependence on God.

For Panda & Zorro

13th May 2007, I was travelling from Kelana Jayasometime just after after 2am and was heading backhome towards KL. At about 2.25 – 2.30 a.m my carcollided into a van for which, I clearly saw as twovehicle headlights – was heading in the oppposite direction of travel as I, but on the same side of the highway (the side which heads towards Kuala Lumpurfrom Petaling Jaya).I don’t know how the van got to that same side of the highway as there is a barrier that divides both traffic flow. This took place nearthe Marble arch (border between Selangor and KualaLumpur).

The fact of the matter is that surely someone musthave seen this vehicle travelling in the wrong direction or at least popping up out of nowhere intheir sight of travel, especially for those vehiclesdirectly behind mine. Also, some of those on the otherside of the highway (rightfully heading towardsPetaling Jaya)would have noticed the van travelling onthe wrong side of the traffic flow before thecollision occured. My sincere plea would be for anyone who had witness this incident, please,please be so kind to contact [Mr. Soon Wei; +6012-2111017] to confirm the occurance of the oncoming vehicle at thattime. If not, pass this around to as many people asyou can so that it may reach those who had witnessed it. Thank you so very much. May God bless you.

–TERENCE–

1. 13th May 2007, Terence was travelling from Kelana Jaya.(frens apartment) Left sometime after 2am and headedback home towards KL. At about 2.25 – 2.30 a.m his car collided into a van which he clearly saw was heading inthe oppposite direction of travel as he, but on thesame side of the highway (the side which heads towardsKuala Lumpur from PJ) He doesn’t know how the van got to that side of the highway as there is a barrier thatdivides both traffic flow. This took place near theMarble arch (Kota Darul Ehsan Arch)
2. It was an extremely terrible accident, the two cars collided badly in which Terence manage to swerve slightly to the right, and having the commercial van crash right through the entire left side of the car. Basically, the dashboard was at the end of the car after the crash, the skidmarks were AFTER the accident and not BEFORE the crash indicating the intensity of the crash. Terence’s car was a total loss. The commercial van’s front was completely ruptured.
3. The respective injuries suffered by the 2 drivers – Terence suffered from a fractured left eye socket, with 3 of his left fingers – the skin basically flapped up in rawness from the impact. Further injuries like minor concussion, bruises around the body and lower limbs. His main injury was still the eye in which he needed surgery. He had to be operated taking a graft from the hip bone to be inserted into the eye socket, to lift the eye piece back in order. His vision is somewhat impaired temporarily for the moment. The foreign exposure into the hip had been a difficult one as there was a tube inserted into the hip bone to drain out the fluid, blood and serum which affected his mobility and caused a lot of discomfort for him.
4. The driver, Dhaljit Singh, was in a coma from the tragic accident. I said was because last Friday afternoon, he passed away. No idea who he is other than his name, basically it’s a blank hole of this one. May his soul rest in peace.
5. As a result of his death, there has been some SERIOUS complication with Terence’s case.
6. Terence was discharged on Saturday, and was expected straight away to report at the police station. He wanted to make a report also because he was in fear that the other party might have done so. He was frail and not in best condition to be serving his mind but he was faced with a tough moment….

Findings/Concerns

1. Terence had a little tiff with the police a day earlier when he came over to pass the news to Terence saying that the driver had passed away. He was unhappy and felt that it could be a scare on the police’s part plus the runners from the various panel workshops.
2. So, when he had to serve his report at the police station after signing his report, Terence was quickly reprimanded by the police for giving a FALSE STATEMENT. Terence could not quite make out the reason why they were so adamant until they had a produced a very fade picture of the commercial van travelling on the CORRECT side of the road at 1:49 am from the Batu Tiga cameras.
3. So we face a situation where a person has been driving on the right side of the road,got badly injured and also caused a death of another person. – this is what the police claims.
   
4. The police basically wanted to lock Terence up for further investigation and he was frail and tired, and just weak – he was just discharged from the hospital. He spent 6 hours in the police station that saturday evening. I was there with him with some others.
5. The police was basically sure of wanting to put in the lockup for his Kes Palsu.There were many attempts of something coming through yet we still stood our ground.
6. In short, he got out after that night but is faced with the next statement reporting on June 6.
   
7. It’s wednesday today, they have yet to meet the witness. He has been rather evasive or seemed busy, Terence is worried about his situation, and the lawyer that he is attached with is asking him to hang on i.e. relax while the witness gets back to him.
8. Thankfully, the lawyer, Justin M., is quite an expert with personal injury cases (ie. the ambulance chasers sort of cases) and had been a policeman for 6 years (yes, the connections do help here too).
9. What happens after this is EXTREMELY CRUCIAL. I ask for…

Prayer Requests

1. Pray for wisdom for the lawyer that he may have a sense of urgency in the case as if it his own, in his approaches to the case and whatever from a legal point of view in dealing with the neccessary challenges along the way
2. The police may be lenient with Terence. Currently, they supposedly have evidence stacked against him and the harmony tune isn’t exactly being played for Terence’s best interest.
3. That bribes and the runners who all wants a piece of Terence’s current damage and making a profit of the case – may all that be diminished
4. Pray for the peace, and healing for Terence’s physical body, peace of mind and in heart that he may not trip over his worried thoughts and that he’lll continue seek from above. I am sure God will provide.
5. Pray also for the status of Terence’s job – as he had just moved into a new workplace in which the job role requires him to travel, and move around. He’s lost a car, unable to drive nor take public transport because of his current situation. He is expected to see his boss next monday. Also the issue of money and further upkeep in future now seems stagnant for now because of his situation.
6. please pray for my family that wewill be united . that the anxiety and hurt would berelieved. And that every move the family members makewould be the right move.

Dear friends and to anyone else who reads this, may or may not know Terence. I sincerely ask that you’ll just keep him in prayer throughout this time. Pray also for me, as I continue to journey with Terence throughout this difficult period, pray for the wisdom and understanding and also patience in addressing all the challenges ahead. It’s going to be a bumpy ride but I’m confident that God is still in control. Many are already praying, I only ask for one more…YOU.

I had a brief chat with Terence this evening. I just encouraged him to say that I have taken a pro-active approach in trying to get leads to his current case. Also, a detailed email asking for prayer – for I believe that we surrender all to our Lord in such times, in every possible time if I may just add. He concurred with me. He tells me that he is a lot calmer now, also recuperating well from his surgery, the tone and manner of his voice has some positive shade. Amen. He told me he was spending some reading – the bible, New Testament in fact. Amen again. He shared with the relevance of the good book and his current situation in which I quickly added that this might just be his wake up call. He totally agreed. Now everyone say Amen!.

He further mentioned that he is beginning to see things in a very different perspective, at least in a way that he has not seen for a long time. I am encouraged. The witness is expected to get back to Terence on the 28th and we’ll be expecting him. Please pray for his visibility of his case. As you know if there is not witness, there is no case for Terence. So continue to pray. I want to thank everyone who took the time to read, pray and understand the situation of this person and also for me who is journeying with him closely.

In Terence’s own words, “I think it’s about time our group started to wake up”. I said nothing but responded in heart, “may the voice wake the others, as they have woken you”. I rely on His voice daily. In the heard and unheard ways.

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On a different mic, I had an opportunity to once again do some VO recording but alas again, with the power pack VO pros lah. Too good I say, too good. I probably was the feature of One Line Wonders that night But still, it was good fun (albeit stressful on my part at times – tough to deliver, although I really enjoy the little that I can dabble with). Hopefully I’ll polish the little that I have and continue to serve the Lord in any possible way.

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A teacher told me for one to improve, one must work had. If you like a line from what you’ve read, write it down. Use it when you can. To read different genres, and write your favourite lines. Then channel it to your writing. It was the same voice echoing from my own heart – it takes hard work.

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On other fronts, I am emcee-ing at Cam’s wedding next Saturday. The church wedding, never in my life have I ever done it before. God help me. At least Jon’s script will help surely, thx bro! But yea, I need some Godly inspiration and wisdom to be able to pull this off. I just hope I don’t get too overwhelmed by the beautiful ceremony. Emo lah.

Also, I am asked to share a short scripture meditation on the theme – grace of God. First response, jialat. Never, absolutely have never done this one before what more Sunday pulpit. I am in fear and trembling shaking in my knuckle bones. So much to really say on the grace of God yet having to speak where by the congregation may have accesbility to. Do pray, I mean it.

I am totally exhausted right now. I have been kinda waiting for this exhausting moment, in truth, a moment of satisfaction. I played like a champ today. I played like one who came back from the benchwarmers club. In my case, I bounced back from injury.

For many weeks now, I have been playing a very defensive game – at most trying to get the ball over the court. My strokes have completely lost its sting. The accuracy was at best with my poor vision without my glasses. I wasn’t glad with my performance, the many weeks of thrashing at times. However, I persevered and much help from the younger one, SS. He’s a good player now.

He taught me once again of what I used to know but have forgotten quickly. He says, “listen to the sound of the shuttle”. Ah, brilliant. Start correcting my grip. I guess the adventure of tennis really screwed up my game. So there was a lot correcting and practice that needed to be put into it. Not forgetting the footwork, spring action – heels up, keeping centre at all times. It somewhat wearing me down and I was kinda dejected perhaps. I’m glad tonight was different. After a more regular stint on Thursdays and Sundays, it’s all coming back to me now.

7 games. 2 1/2 hours.
Close matches, some forced to rubber.
More than one brilliant rally.
Focus was key in every shot detail
The drive and passion pushed me all the way.

Tonight, I felt badminton in my blood once again.

:: I’m all rosy and pink now from the game and shower, clean face as anything. All tired and sore – shoulder is starting to get tight, popped an Arcoxia and icing after this. Feet is numb. Feels like the good ol’ training days.

::: I have not been so physically tired for a long long time. It actually feels good.

I don’t see how an elephant makes me happy. hehe.

Earlier, I knew what I wanted to write. I had it all summed up in my head with further reiteration to some others whom I have spoken to. I wanted to somewhat probably digest, vent, pour out my feelings and my thoughts to what has happened (another timely post on that later)

I was quickly reminded of Him.

I take this verse to heart tonight, Ecclesiastes 8:1 – How wonderful to be wise, to be able to analyze and interpret things. Wisdom lights up a person’s face, softening its hardness (NLT).

I truly believe that the Lord has begun (which gives me hope) the work in me and is now continuing (I see the changes) to shape me through the various situations, the people that I have been talking to. I am very encouraged by their friendship and also their contribution to my growing moments this year. I also rest assured, that God is speaking to me through them.

And in my solitude, as I seek, I find the peace and understanding that His hand is at work in my life. Now, I just have to keep this desire and passion without letting it lose its grip. For I know the slippery slope catches on real quick.

:: For by every prayer, the fulfillment of addressing every possible and impossible concern is nourished by the Spirit which prompts the trust and patience, that God is working; from the inside out.

Be Thou my vision
O Lord of my heart
Be Thou my wisdom
And Thou my true Word
Be Thou my battle shield
Riches I heed not
Nor man’s empty praise
Thou and Thou only
First in my heart
HIgh King of heaven
My victory won

Hello again, it’s you and me
Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin’ wine, killing time
Trying to solve life’s mysteries

How’s your life, it’s been a while
God it’s good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys

Looking for a reason not to leave
If you don’t know if you should stay
If you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just breathe
There’s nowhere else tonight we should be

You wanna make a memory?

I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had.
It’s bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing I don’t wanna ask

If you go now, I’ll understand
If you stay, hey, I’ve got a plan
We’re gonna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

You wanna make a memory?

If you don’t know if you should stay
And you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just breathe
There’s nowhere else tonight we should be
We Should be

You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

You wanna make a memory?