God: Choices

Love: Facets of a diamond

*test*

Removing the threads of my wound,
The healing scart its yet raw,
Opening oneself to feelings of what my come,
If only one knew where to close and open anew,
That one may be found and not lost.

We had our first practice after the one month hiatus. August is a crucial month for the team. September and October we bring the house down in the different venues. Man, the reality sinking is surely nail biting to begin with. For some of us, it’ll be our debut performance as a touring production. We’re excited, nervous and everything else mixing the blender of preparations at the moment.

I can say for myself, the least.

I think before I even consider vocal classes, I should take some classes on speech, public speaking or anything related to inflexion, diction and expression of the English language. Coz I suck big time! Man, the things I say sometimes, the way I express seems so contrived to begin with. It haunts me, but faith to overcome these little idiosyncrasies it in some glimmer of hope for me.

But as a team, we work through it together. It was a warm feeling tonight after the end of practice, with the laughs along the way, the emotions drawn upon, the works to add n strengthen new layers of sketches; we dedicated the last minutes in prayer, holding hands as a team.

It meant family to me, to be in the warm embrace and working towards serving God, that we’re servants at his service. It was nice touch to the night and a new phase for Footstool. Thanks God!

Words are free, so are Lucifer’s! The blessing of being a Christian is that you know the difference between good and evil. A reformed, an experienced darkman like myself gives credit to where it should be given, to those who have invested in my life for light to shine.

Clearly, Mr S.A Tan isn’t happy at all. I can sense the strong struggle that I have living my days as a christian, he somehow just wants to bring me down.

Maybe recently, my ministry in Footstool, my chances to be able to speak at CF’s, my stand yet difficult to commit to doing my quiet time daily has left an acid wound on his arm, I don’t know. But he sure as hell is heating up the fire.

Persevere and have faith! I am not going to bow down, why serve a master that only gives you a free ride to hell. Well, he sure as hell can paint a pretty picture.

You know, I never really took a stand for Christ. Not as much as being open soldier dying for Him. But I have somehow lived my christian life as a saved victim more than a reborn of new living. I am not living for Christ. I have not taken many great steps in doing so. Maybe it just never hit me.

I feel this year, that I need to equip myself. So the possibilities of attending christian seminars may just be one option. Previously, I wouldn’t even bother. Think its just not for me, ain’t holy enough. Ain’t christian enough.

:: Work me to the core O Lord, Strip me away and rebuild what is needed to win this war of the world, may the battles become a stronger victory because I want to crush him down!

God: Choices

Love: Facets of a diamond

(Beta testing)

I have before me my journal and a book that I have been reading, Wild At Heart. I have highlighted a portion that I felt strongly about. I even finished with QT having reading Matthew 3. From the scripture I picked up two verses for my keepings. Now, I’m trying to gel them all together. I wish to inject my current life incidents recently to form a stronger connection.

Some of you may know, my shoulder injury has been nothing but a nagging pain. The idea of gym and badminton sessions in a day is clearly out of the question. Anyhow, I have been visiting the physio in-and-out for the past 2 1/2 weeks. I went for another session today. Plus point? I got to know him a lot better and I don’t have to wait anymore. I am feeling better too. Just rotating my shoulder as some angles still screams the hell out of me. But ya, pray for me.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about something. The result of this ‘bitter anger’ is a fragile situation. I honestly don’t know how to handle it, which means I still don’t know what to do because the action that I plan to take may not be just. In other words, I want to handle the situation in a christ like way. And I know that if I brought the situation to people, the wisdom is still mainly human. Guess to lift it up to God would be best. But a strong part of me feels like bringing down the house when I think of it. Sometimes, God hits you at your most sensitive spot to test you, well this is one of it!

So yea, I just wanted to lay those down to set a road map for myself. To be human and be in reality that although I’m a Christian, we face our own issues too. Makes us more human I guess. For one to admit that one is weak and needs help, instead of hiding with a fig leaf as Adam did; takes courage and well….initiation. God helps with that.

A diamond is said to be forever,
As friendship refines over time,
Solidify by passing years,
With enchanting moments to remember by.

Your presence that surrounds me,
Has added flavour into my life,
For it has polished my unrefined areas,
Taking form of a star,
Shining brightly, a beacon for you.

Essence colours an unpainted picture,
For every picture tells a story,
But the completion of it,
Can only be made whole by your touch.

I was wondering whether we could,
bring this friendship to another level,
where I would like to crystallize our relationship,
And make you the diamond of my heart.

God: Choices

Love: Facets of a diamond

(Beta page)

He who calms the sea
Like a silk blanket He coats the ocean
Only to find a new world underneath
There I was, mesmerized by the sight
Only to come back up w/ delight
Truly, you are the light of the world.

Nature’s true jazz was being played
Heavenly by you, just heavenly
As the waves hit the shores
It slowly cured my wordly sores
Because I know there’s you
That soars above it all.

A painter you must be
For the presence of your landscape
Completely stole my heart away
With the breathtaking views embraced
Every blink you set a new horizon
Over the colors of your creations

Even in the night you make your presence known
If only I took the time to look upon
The million stars you place over the night canvas
To remind me that during my darkest times
You were there, just there
Right above it all, if only
I had made the choice, the choice
To seek you first above it all.